Wow....it's been over a month since I posted a blog!
I wonder if anyone will even read this one, considering it has been so long.
I have a lot of reasons why I have gone so long.
Here's a partial list:
Not enough time; felt like I had nothing to say; didn't think it made any difference anyway; and on and on and on.
But the biggest reason when I faced it today was this.
My oldest daughter that my wife and I have.
My oldest daughter that is in the middle of rebellion against God.
My oldest daughter that is in the middle of rebellion against God and had me feeling like a complete failure as a Dad, christian, and a human being.
But today, on Mothers Day, I thought about my Mom in the middle of my sermon this morning.
While preaching the "traditional" Mothers Day message (which if you don't know me, is unusual in itself), I thought of what my Mom must have thought all during my years of rebellion. You see my Mom went to be with the Lord 13 years ago. She never got to see my youngest child (he was born the day after she passed away), and she never saw me become the pastor of the biggest little church there ever was (Loma Rica Baptist Church). She never saw just what all her years of prayer and commitment to the Lord finally brought about in her oldest son.
I told the church this morning, "When you pray to God, ask Him to tell your Mom, "I love you." Ask Him to tell her, "Yes, it took. I know you must have wondered, but the commitment I made to Jesus was real. I'm living for Jesus now. Thanks for praying for me all those years."
So, I will not focus on what I often think of as my failure in the life of my daughter. I wondered away from God and spent a good ten years in the wilderness before I crossed over into the promised land of a life lived for Jesus.
I don't know how long my daughter will be where she is.
But I do know that God answers prayers.
I will keep praying for her.
I will never stop praying for her.
And I will focus on Jesus and what He has done for me.
In the process, I just might blog a bit more.
If anyone is reading this blog still....let me know what you think.
Ok, so there's that.